Getting married has been a disorienting experience. While regular life happened in the months leading up to the event, I felt like I was living in a parallel universe where life was flashing before my eyes, forwards and backwards.
Right between all that swinging back and forth were moments of extreme clarity and awareness. I often used to feel like a cabbage patch kid, sprung from the earth with no roots or context or culture. A special offshoot of imposter syndrome. But I haven’t had that feeling in a while.
At our wedding it was so validating to hear our friends hit on the same notes in their speeches. To feel known and seen. They mentioned my creative pursuits — this newsletter, my ceramics — and it reminded me that, more than anything, I did those things as a way of putting something nice out into the world. Putting myself out there and being misunderstood used to be my biggest fear… now more than ever, I feel like I don’t have anything to hide.
So I’m going to keep at it! Here’s the latest… there’s more to come, so like and subscribe <3